Wow at how time flies?!

' Jom Masuk U ' ...  -gasp-

Karnival Pengajian Tinggi Negara 2013, Universiti Malaya (26/1 - 27/1)

While getting ready to go to the fair..

the 7 y/o lil bro: Kakak, kenapa kakak kena pergi universiti?
the 10 y/o lil sis: Nanti amil besar pun kena pergi juga lah.

When we entered the gate of Universiti Malaya and passed thru the buildings..

lil bro: Kenapa kakak kena belajar sorang-sorang? / Nanti kakak belajar sorang-sorang ke?
lil sis: Taklah takkan kakak belajar sorang-sorang mesti ada cikgu sekali. Kawan-kawan kakak pun ada.
lil bro: Tapi mesti kawan-kawan kakak pergi universiti lain ha nanti kakak sorang-sorang 

 Those kiddos. What even -,-

..

ummi: Nanti kakak nak ambil course apa? Kakak nak jadi apa?
me: ... Tak tahu.
abi & ummi: Mana boleh tak tahu, kena fikirlah dari sekarang

...

Yes, i dont know. It's not that i didn't plan anything, i did planned. But i think too much that i messed my mind and i'm tired too think because i'll end up spacing out then blank... idk what to think anymore. Plus people will think my ambition is ridiculous bc it's not an ambition (well it is) but it's actually a dream? idk. People wont understand even if i explain to them because i'm that complicated yeah.

Now, the problem is.... course.

Uh. Wait. What. What course. I'm just a highschooler?

My senior when i was form 1 is married and now having a baby.

I'm turning 17 in 4 days.

Will be sitting on SPM this year.

And then leave the school ...

WAIT HOLD IT RIGHT THERE WHATS GOING ON DID I MISS SOMETHING WHY IS LIFE GOING TOO FAST I WAS JUST A SMALL FETUS LITTLE GIRL TRYING TO FIND HER TRUESELF BACK THEN BUT NOW HERE I AM BUT-

Can the time stop for awhile so that i can catch up on everything that is happening in my life? 

Like that would happen duh. 

WAKE UP DEARSELF 

theres no second chance

live hell or live well