Why do you feel so alone?

Hey, I'm still alive

" I want to cherish every moment of my life in 2013! "
"..since it's our last year together, let's make good memories! "
" Spend every moment wisely or you will regret! "


Things turned out to be the opposite.

What happened and how did it turned out like this, who knows.

Bad memories were made more than the good one.

Keep having bad terms with people more than bonding.

Losing interest in studies.

More fake smiles.

The rain falls harder than ever.

Theres no such thing as bright and sunny day anymore.

Trying to stand on your own is not that easy,
RIGHT.

But that's ok.

You can't do anything about that because you're used to it.

BUNNY PARADISE

“Okunoshima is a small Japanese island, located in the Inland Sea of Japan, in the Hiroshima Prefecture. What’s special about this place is that it is completely crawling with rabbits – a bunny paradise of sorts. Nicknamed the Rabbit Okunoshima attracts thousands of animal lovers every year. Feeding bunnies can be one of the most relaxing pastimes, and people come here to do just that. The island is a popular day-trip and weekend holiday destination.”

Have i ever mentioned my undying love towards rabbits? They are so cute and adorable and fluffy and huggable and ajfdgbfdjgfufidg ok. I even dreamed to live in the plane that only rabbits live there, no humans only bunnies. And i became the Queen of the Rabbit's Kingdom and i already listed the guards, the warriors, etc consist of my fav characters. I also created an emblem for the kingdom. Old days. 

Anyway, the island is such a perfect place for me can someone take me there like now i need to meet the bunnies can i live there instead i have to the island is made for me indeed  

The inside that will remain inside

Theres a strong force that keeps me away from clicking the publish button.

Wow at how time flies?!

' Jom Masuk U ' ...  -gasp-

Karnival Pengajian Tinggi Negara 2013, Universiti Malaya (26/1 - 27/1)

While getting ready to go to the fair..

the 7 y/o lil bro: Kakak, kenapa kakak kena pergi universiti?
the 10 y/o lil sis: Nanti amil besar pun kena pergi juga lah.

When we entered the gate of Universiti Malaya and passed thru the buildings..

lil bro: Kenapa kakak kena belajar sorang-sorang? / Nanti kakak belajar sorang-sorang ke?
lil sis: Taklah takkan kakak belajar sorang-sorang mesti ada cikgu sekali. Kawan-kawan kakak pun ada.
lil bro: Tapi mesti kawan-kawan kakak pergi universiti lain ha nanti kakak sorang-sorang 

 Those kiddos. What even -,-

..

ummi: Nanti kakak nak ambil course apa? Kakak nak jadi apa?
me: ... Tak tahu.
abi & ummi: Mana boleh tak tahu, kena fikirlah dari sekarang

...

Yes, i dont know. It's not that i didn't plan anything, i did planned. But i think too much that i messed my mind and i'm tired too think because i'll end up spacing out then blank... idk what to think anymore. Plus people will think my ambition is ridiculous bc it's not an ambition (well it is) but it's actually a dream? idk. People wont understand even if i explain to them because i'm that complicated yeah.

Now, the problem is.... course.

Uh. Wait. What. What course. I'm just a highschooler?

My senior when i was form 1 is married and now having a baby.

I'm turning 17 in 4 days.

Will be sitting on SPM this year.

And then leave the school ...

WAIT HOLD IT RIGHT THERE WHATS GOING ON DID I MISS SOMETHING WHY IS LIFE GOING TOO FAST I WAS JUST A SMALL FETUS LITTLE GIRL TRYING TO FIND HER TRUESELF BACK THEN BUT NOW HERE I AM BUT-

Can the time stop for awhile so that i can catch up on everything that is happening in my life? 

Like that would happen duh. 

WAKE UP DEARSELF 

theres no second chance

live hell or live well

Useless

Bunch of people around.

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