A new her

few days before... 

*looks at her fb pic* 

Theres something wrong with my eyes ._.

*scrolls* 

.....

:') 

but. don't put your hopes high, mym. 

I'm not doubting. it's just.... unbeliavable. Well, anything is possible if He say so. 

7/9/12 Arisya's 2nd birthday :)

I need to confirm it today. 

... 

So, it's true. 

Alhamdulillah. Subhanallah. 

I'm happy. Very happy. Speechless. 

Feels like crying, but theres no tears left .. /forsomereason/

If can, i wanna hug her.. and say congratz

but yeah, that's not me. I'm an awkward person.

When i think about it, it's quiet dissapointing. No, not the change. Me. 

I've been with her since i was little. But i change nothing eventho i knew it's my responsibility. Since i'm surrounded by these kind of surrounding. Now, it was just a few months since she left and she already changed. While it took years for me but i failed. .. 

And also, my dear friend. I heard she's living well too. Alhamdulillah. 

I know, i'm a fail cousin & friend. 

By looking at them... i wonder.
What about me? Am i gonna stay like this forever? Sit here and do nothing? 

Shame on me then.